The problem is that i am far too lazy and i enjoy being lazy far too much....so when it comes to taking the initiative and doing somethings its hard....but anyways......hells i dont even kno what to talk about in one of these journally thingies....i mean life's been gud, but nothing interesting really....wake up, go to skool, get happy at random points get depressed at others....get home, eat, pretend to do hw...and now that i have less and less hw i have to be more creative with doing nothing and its hard.....and it always sux when no one is responding to ur txt messages which only serves to highlight my distinct lack of friends except when there is a physics or math test comming up in which case everyone loves me and wants me to help them and whatnot....i mean then its like txt after txt after call after call and then "hey roshan lets go to starbucks and hang out...maybe study some math or something too" *sigh*....i'm so glad i'm going to caltech where i can be dumb and my friends will be my friends not cuz i can help them but because they r genuine friends....i mean i kno sme of mine r but still i'm mostly an outsider in any kind of social circles.....my "friends" go do something on the weekends and then find out the next week how fun the weekend was and realize i didn't get a call even tho everyone involved was a so called friend......i'm gonna stop now this train of thought is depressing and just might crash very soon